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The Balancing Act: WoW and Shame

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Playing video games, any video games, is a pretty time consuming hobby.  Sure, us gamers generally get more bang for our buck than movie or comic aficionados, but they are able to toll out their free time to a myriad of content.  And that is just in the time it takes us to finish a single game, a single player game at that.  Once you throw in titles with deep multiplayer experiences (hello World of Warcraft) the trouble really begins.

In this world time no longer exists.  The hands of the clock are fleeting pieces of plastic ever hoping to outlast the motor that propels them.  Now, in a universe focused on social interactions, seconds, minutes and hours lose their meaning.  /played simply measures the "real world" as it passes us by.  Here in the world of Azeroth, time isn't measured by some arbitrary atom's ability to spin around some other small object.  It's measured in levels, loot and achievements.  But the real world is ever flowing.  It doesn't simply stop while we are medulla oblongata deep into a session.  Which causes this addict to feel a ting of remorse, a microgram of deceit, a swath of regret, and even soul crushing shame on certain occasions.

An all too common occurrence:
Wait, what was that noise?  Was that the door?  Oh crap, I think I feel footsteps reverberating through the house.  Creaks of floorboards!  Heavens no, she is headed this way.  She is coming up the stairs!

Don't panic, you've practiced this.  Okay, the toon is in a safe place.  /quit to leave the game and it is all good.  Schnickies, I forgot to accept the confirmation.  The doorknob, it's spinning.  Close dammit, why won't the window close!  Oh dear C'Thun, the door is opening!  Must distract her with something...a ferret!

/me tosses a ferret at Ms. iTZKooPA as she rounds the corner to the desk and peers at my screen.  A screen full of articles, websites, GIMP, research and not a single game in sight.

End Scene.

Most of the time I can pull it off, but now and then I get caught.  Busted in the middle of an instance, chatting on Ventrilo, messing around in Dalaran or the Auction House or continuing to push Solidsagart to level 80.  But you know what the cold, ironic fact is?  She doesn't care.

It's all me.  I am the one who puts this sense of guilt upon myself.  Me.  I don't spend ridiculous amount of time playing video games, especially when you consider that it is part of my income, and yet I hide it.  I get most of my playtime in when no one is around, when the house, couch and speaker system is mine.  I'm becoming a closet gamer (only the act of gaming, I'll discuss it till I am horse), and I don't know why!

Does anyone else game in a vacuum?  Could I be getting self conscious (finally) in my "old" age?  How do you hide your WoW from those around you?

Reader Comments (36)

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July 29, 2009 | Unregistered Commenterlolumad92

Simply like: WoW is that online game which has a lot of people playing on it? Other than that some of my friends play it aswell and they are much worse. Or even my friends dad who needs to mine some stuff so he can make a new ring.

Other then that I have the same feeling about time flying by...

It has nothing to do with addiction. If a violist plays a lot he/she is gifted so I see WoW as one of my gifts

July 29, 2009 | Unregistered CommenterJis

I don't... Get a grip man! I could care less what other people think of my gamer lifestyle, videogames are my hobby, I don't go around telling people who collect stamps or play sports to be ashamed of themselves playing videogames is as much of a hobby as anything else

July 29, 2009 | Unregistered CommenterSlyfanitor

I see WoW as a game, like any other game you spend alot of time playing you loose track of time and it does seem to fly by. Apparantly I've played 65 hours of World of Warcraft the last 7 days alone, but I don't feel the need to hide it.

I have a friend who has chosen to select his World of Warcraft hours to not be monitored by Xfire, I asked him the reason why, he said "I don't wanna look geeky". In my opinion he is a fool. The only other people who are going to really look at his Xfire hours are other gamers and himself, does the person who plays Call of Duty 4 65 hours a week get called "geeky". No, He is a pro gamer. I understand the nature of Warcraft and it's whole "lol dwarves and elves, wat r u 1 of dem people who plays board games with a wizards hat on", the fact is people who have never played the game more than 2 hours stereotypically generalise you as a "geek/nerd".

I think this is why you hide your game, afraid of the possibility of being rejected and being generalised into a lower social group.

On a personal note, I don't hide the fact that I play WoW. But, I am worried on how much I am missing out.

I do go out on a weekly basis, but this is because people drag me out. Everytime I'm asked to go down town or something, theres always that feeling of "nah, I just want to stay in and play WoW" although I wouldn't say that to anyone, I would still, if asked, "what do you do on a night then?" I would tell the truth "Play games or something", "Oh yeah, what do you play on?" I reply "World of Warcraft", their face drops, queue the laughter. But is he any different, I looked at his Xfire yesterday he has 6000 hours on Call of Duty 4 (61 hours spent the past 7 days) and 11,000 on Call of Duty 2 (12 hours spent the last 7 days). In comparison to my 3000 hours on World of Warcraft (65 in the past 7 days).

In honesty It is self consciousness, it does drive you to do silly things to impress or decieve others. You shouldn't feel guilty at all.

July 29, 2009 | Unregistered CommenterLeegion

I swear I'm going crazy! Most of my friends know I play this game, but when the door gets knocked and they come inside, I sprint into the room and quit the game as if they'd feel shame... but most of them want to have a go and make a frickin' new character... Why do I feel nerdy for a game?

Sure, sometimes they think it's geeky, but when you tell them what it is, they want to have a go, but I still quit the game when the door knocks...

July 29, 2009 | Unregistered CommenterThurin

uh idc if my freinds and stuff see me playing... its a fun game and i dont care what they think of me or about it and i just have fun and again dont care.... nobody should feel ashamed of playing it... its really popular and cool

July 29, 2009 | Unregistered CommenterDylan

I play for me. My sons both play and we have a blast together. I could care less what people think of me. Its like any hobby, no different, no more or less addictive. It is what it is. I love WOW and wont be quiting.

July 29, 2009 | Unregistered CommenterReeper

5 of my closest friends play. Half the time, we pull a South Park and take all our computers to one house and smash heroics all night.
The girfriends don't appreciate it, but they entertain themselves, and they could leave if they'd like to.

July 29, 2009 | Unregistered CommenterCendarius

I am very very proud of my WoW playing.
If someone says "Oh wow you play that? It's stupid lawlz." I tell 'em to go do something "hip" "cool" or "in," like getting an STD or having a cocaine party.

I'll stick with WoW and the expanding of my imagination, and experiences that I will never forget, thanks.

July 29, 2009 | Unregistered CommenterCromius

i have done that many times. during the schoool year my mom banned me from playing but i stil played when i got home, before she got home.

now that its summer i can play whenever but when he walks in i still have the urge to close the window and open up internet explorer to at like i was already doing that

July 29, 2009 | Unregistered Commenterlanuadra

Im a closet wow player. I dont car if my family knows. But out of my friends 2 know i dont know why but im ashamed of it.

July 29, 2009 | Unregistered CommenterSno

Leegion just said everything that was needed to say...
But, I don't know man...this is so freaking weird! I mean, you're ashamed of you playing WoW? Ok, some of my friends tell me that I'm a geek, but idc about what they say...I play no more than 4 hours a day, go out on the weekends, have a work, go to the college, and still, because I play this MMO, I'm a geek in their opinion...I love movies, comics, games, television...if this is being a geek, so be it ^^

July 29, 2009 | Unregistered CommenterWittgenstein

Get a grip, mon!

It's not like you're banging around the cellars of Goldshire or anything. ...right?

Gaming is just as valid a hobby as chess, painting, D&D, Warhammer, etc. It's (mainly) an indoor activity, so there is an inherent need to balance time between WoW and Outside. I've grown up and lived with the stigma of being a gamer: sure, the ignorant can snicker all they want, but the ignorant only exist to be ignored anyway.

My advice: Wake up, smell the daisies. You're a gamer. If you can't live with yourself, change and become a has-been wannabe. On the other hand, you can find your kahooneys, man up, game on and make minor adjustments to suit your significant other.

THERE IS **NO** SHAME BEING A GAMER (or a WoWhead)

July 29, 2009 | Unregistered CommenterOjimaru

No reason to be ashamed mate. I play WoW for sometimes hours a day, still find time for girls, friends, family, sports, and everything else I enjoy doing. I don't hide it, if anything I sometimes flaunt it. Not because "im so 1337", but because those that think I'm "geeky" because I enjoy this hobby can go to hell. Be proud of who you are friend!

July 29, 2009 | Unregistered CommenterEroina

I read the books, spend time reading up on the game and I play the game a lot (like 70+ hours per week according to xfire).

And everyone knows it, I'll blow people off because I have a raid scheduled. Most of them get really pissy, my friends that is, because they see themselves as more important because they're physically there.

But why are they more important as opposed to something scheduled via in game calendar?
If I'm scheduled for Ulduar 10 in my close knit Ulduar group, and I sign up and don't show, they've got to find a replacement, it detracts from their experience too. And they are real people just like me. Plus, I enjoy playing.

So I think you should take my philosophy.

If they're your friends, they'll understand your love for the game (hell, one of my best friends is in my guild with me), if they get pissy, tell them tough. If they get really pissy tell them to get lost because it's you and if they're your friends, they'll accept you for who you are.
There's no need to hide it. It's part of your personality, if people don't like that, it's their problem.

Hell there's over 11million people just like you, why should you feel ashamed?

July 29, 2009 | Unregistered CommenterSean

Oh, and it was me who got one of my best friends in to WoW, before that he was like "lol, paying to play a game every month? lol, with elves and shit?"

So I let him play on my account for a bit round my house.

3 months later I was running around Dalaran on my Swift Zhevra.
=p

July 29, 2009 | Unregistered CommenterSean

WOW is my life especialy in teh summer whear i have nothing ellse to do i am sertainly not ashamed of it why would i be its a fun game i excepted teh fact taht i have absolutly no other life but the life of my avatars when my father tells me to go out and look outside what season is it i just look out the window and tell hiim what season is it and go back to playing

July 29, 2009 | Unregistered Commentercocopuff

I've alloted a small amount of time each day to gaming, and only raid in lvl 80 raids with my guild once a week (not counting the occasional VoA run I'm sometimes pulled into, which never finish when I'm in them, lol). But when I play, I sometimes forget how long I'm on, and end up staying on longer. I hide it when I've been playing for what feels like one hour, but was really three, and have forgotten about the laundry or dishes I had to do, with my mom coming home in 15 minutes! I always get in trouble and have to do double time on the chores.

July 29, 2009 | Unregistered CommenterAzurienatei

thats wasome, now i dont feel alone in my "hidden" obsession. I dont mind people knowing that i play on a daily basis, but its the act of someone around me/seeing me play that really drags me insane. You get that feeling in the back of your head that they are judging you.

July 29, 2009 | Unregistered CommenterVayder

I know the feeling you desribe myself. Yet as you said, its all un our heads. In a good partnership or friendship or family, where you are not neglecting your life partner, your friends or your children because of the game they will not care and love you for who you are.
If they don't, you made a wrong decision regarding your RL somewhere down the road.

For me reality always comes first and I have adopted a strict schedule for playing the game, that goes even for leveling alts. If I ever just want to do a heroic, I log on and if I don't find any guildies wanting to do one in about 15 minutes I don't waste time waiting araound.

I found that my feeling of guilt for playing WoW or any other game really comes from a lack of efficiently used time. That is why I have stopped doodling araund in the game at all. I always and only log on with a fullfillable goal, fullfill that goal, be it a raid, a heroic, getting my auctions listed etc. and log off.
That way I don't get the feeling that I have just wasted hours of my time, that could have been used towards, housework, being a husband/father/friend, sports or any other useful or fun activity anymore.

So my 4 WoW Life Lessons would be:

1. Always have a plan / schedule.
2. If possible do nothing without an appointment.
3. Never try to get a guild run going for longer than 15 minutes.
4. Never Ever go to any PUGs. PUGs are the pinnacle of inefficiency and will waste time like nothing else.

July 30, 2009 | Unregistered CommenterBaro

Why should people be ashamed of playing WoW or be classed as nerdy, it's just another hobby, what about the people who collect train numbers or play with model railways do they feel ashamed of themselves (I don't think so). So whats the difference, at the end of the day we are all doing something to occupy our minds or to get away from the hussle and bussle of real life for a few hours.

A friend of mine called me sad because I play wow, he on the other hand as spent a fortune on his car so it looks like something out of the Fast and the Furious (£20,000). He doesn't go anywhere he's always broke (except when it comes to his car), so whats the difference?

Well I enjoy my time playing WoW, spent less than my mate and I still get to go out. My mate on the other hand is always broke, never goes any where (I've never seen him drive his car) and as spent a fortune on a piece of tin that hasn't moved. Who's the sad person now?

July 30, 2009 | Unregistered CommenterCaution

Its ok Koopa i feel the same way as you. Yeah my friends play games but there is something about WoW that gets you labeled as geek. I know i shouldnt be ashamed but well i am.

July 30, 2009 | Unregistered CommenterJosh(the Original one)

-Son! Open the door now, you know perfectly well, we have a no locked doors policy in this house. You better not be playing those video games of yours! Open this very moment! Open the door! Open now!"
-No no dad, I swear I'm only masterbatin!"
-Ok, dinner is ready in 15 minutes and remember to wash your hands.

July 30, 2009 | Unregistered CommenterHank

I actually have to hide my WoW-ness from those at work. These days, it's about the only time I have to look up stats, strats, and other what-not's I need for when I actually log into the game.

Not to say that I PLAY at work, hell no. That would cost me my job.

When at home I do end up playing in a vacuum, but I hide it from no one. It has gotten to the point that, if my folks want to plan something for the weekend that will include my participation or help, they ask me first if I will be in a raid any time during the day.

I love them for that ^_^ The fact that they now plan the day around my raids... bravo!

No, work is the only place to hide this. The proof, I am sitting at work right now typing this comment and have perfected the use of alt-tab to quickly switch to a work-related screen.

Heh, yes, I'm evil that way.

July 30, 2009 | Unregistered CommenterOmbrenoire

these posts are just getting stupider

July 30, 2009 | Unregistered Commenterbveryon

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